Sunday, March 17, 2013

Can my day get any worse ?

I hate this world and I hate my life.
My stupid ass mom fucked my head up today : why are you so thin? are you doing drugs, you are doing drugs! omg, my son is on drugs!
SO WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IF I AM ON DRUGS, BITCH?
Are you the one that get's fucked every fucking day by the stupid gay ass boss!
Are you the one that gets cheated by your girlfriend? she was having sex with 5 dudes when i came home from work!
That bitch that i loved fucking cheated like a gay whore, hungry for dick!!!!
What kind of a whore fucks 5 fucking dudes?!
I tell you: MINE!!!!

And that bitch ass mom was the one that let me suffer as a kid, and as a teenager.
I told her the voices weren't leaving me alone, and she was too busy with drinking and fucking my dog!

You know what?Fuck you guys! i'm too angry to write about my queer life.
Gonna go shoot some heroin or cut my throat.

Fuck you!

Saturday, December 15, 2012

My first blog

Hey there world!
This is my first ever blog post and I'm writing it as I'm feeling quite annoyed by the stupidity and ignorance of the world!
Everyone just walks rapidly, going to work, going home to feed their family, to clean up, to make some more money, to make their lives as monotonous as possible.
They just ignore all the beauty of nature, everything surrounding them.. every small piece of joy! They should all die!
Their happiness makes me so angry as when they laugh they're so false and superficial.. Most of them get amused while criticizing other people and / or hitting them, spitting on them, throwing stuff at them.
Today I just got kicked in the head by a nigger for wearing a black jacket, like it's illegal to wear black jackets. Guess he just wanted it so bad and because I wouldn't take it off just by seeing him I deserve being kicked in the head..

But my story begins way back, since I was in kindergarten. I was bullied there too just because they wanted. I remember once wanting to play with some kids. I just walked towards them and one of them just kicked me in the asshole with no reason. I cried instantly and the pain was excruciating! I went to the caretaker and she just sent me in bed where I pissed myself and couldn't move my legs.

It then continued in grade-school where i had about 8 bullies hitting me over the head everyday, spitting on me, making fun of me and how I looked like or didn't look like. They sometimes just put me down and started kicking me for no reason.
I also remember this one time when we were having P.E. class and we were playing soccer outside. There was a guy who was about 5 years older than me(I was about 12) and he was with a bike. He just got on the field and hit me with the bike. He fell off the bike, I was okay but when he got up he lifted me up by the neck and started punching me as if I had pushed him off the bike or something. Then I fell down and he started kicking me in the stomach... When it all stopped and he left I just got up and told my classmates to pass the ball as the match hadn't ended.

In high-school everyone called me gay and made fun of my appearance and my way of talking...

I'm sick of this shit world! I'm sick of society! I'm going to kill somebody! One way or another! I will! I swear! I promise! I FUCKING WILL!!